My thoughts are that you are challenged and emotionally deprived to the point you felt obliged to continue a ruse into a trip only a very wealthy couple can afford. The idea that you got married, found out your new wife was cheating and didn't immediately have a lawyer annul your marriage just flabbergasted me.

Please get some serious psychotherapy and annul the marriage. Living in a fantasy world is going to see you talking to trees or having CEO meetings with a group of dogs.

You will learn to live comfortably alone both mentally and physically and date people who want to be with you. You will become the best you have ever been.