Are you experiencing this in some way but are not articulate with the dialog? Believe me, dialog can be tough.

Writing about a child contemplating murder and the mother's arrogance is unchanged? I had to write a rape scene once, and my wife was my first reader. She said I needed to research and sent me to a bunch of horror stories about women who were raped and what they did and felt afterward.

You need to know the reality. I don't buy your version.